Night life ;)

A bit longer breake. For more than 4 days I didn't had an Internet connection :/ But nothing important happened, so not much to write about ;)

This month is 'full' of memories: already three meetings with friends - 2 friends from high school and 1 from my studies. That's really cool - to meet with them after some months, even more than a year! I hope that now it will be shorter break ;)

Finally I bought a ticket for my first trip during this fall. So, on 7th October I'll start my travel and on 8th I'm going to visit René in Rotterdam and then on 10th September I'm going for a seminar to Brussels. I'll stay there until 14th September. It will be my first time in Rotterdam, so it will be nice visit :) And I like Brussels very much, so I'm happy to be there again. I hope only that weather will be nice :p

Bad news is that tickets to Cardiff are more expensive that they were in July this year :( That's even a very bad news for me. And I still don't have this last reimbursement and those 2 other delayed transfers :/ Difficult life...

And now I'm watching a world premier of "Ça Ira" - an opera composed by Roger Waters (Pink Floyd). The main idea of it it's a French Revolution and revolutions in general as a 'movement of the world". Between this main revolution you may see also eg. so called "Springtime of Nations", Polish fights with communism etc. Btw - it's organized in Poznań :) As a symbolic thing - city so strongly related with fights for freedom during the communism. About the Poznań 1956 protests (sometimes called Poznań insurrection 1956) you may read here and here. If you'll be interested of course ;)
But coming back to this opera. It's directed by Polish artist - Janusz Józefowicz. He is quite unique artist in Poland - he's director, producer, choreographer, actor and artistic director of Theatre "Buffo" in Warsaw. Besides that he likes also sing a bit, dance a bit and even tap dancing ;) What I must admitt - he's doing all shows in a very professional way, but also full of colours, interesting clothes, props, in innovative ways, with innovative methods etc. And when Roger Waters selected Poland for world premiere of his opera - I'm not surprised that he decided to have Janusz Józefowicz as a coworker :) Good for us. And one plus for our public TV - they have live broadcast :) Something not really usual in this TV, to show 'artistic, cultural' and new things ;)

Ok, I don't have creative vein today, so better to not write long, but stupid posts ;) Sometimes silence is gold... ;)

Bittersweet day

Today I was reading new posts on my linked blogs. And I found a wonderful post on Adelines' blog - specially for me! This is sooo sweet - wonderful poem and a poster from a great movie "Life is beautiful" :))) Cool! Thank you very much Adeline!

That's a good moment of today :)

Day in general was quite ok. It was very lazy morning and noon- long sleep, slow breakfast and coffee with cakes. Then we thought that it would be nice to go to the nearest town - go around and maybe a bit shopping. So, we did it ;) And my uncle with aunt decided to buy first some small things like fruits and a film for my old camera (to have some nice pics from this visit ;)) But after that they decided about two things more - a coffeeset for 6 people (for my parents) and a nice 'sporty' handbag (for me). That's very nice, specially for me - when I'm travelling I often didn't had anything small to put only my wallet, camera and mobile phone ;) So, nice presents :) And then we have a nice ice-creams :)

But at the evening there was not really nice situation - when I told my mother about the seminar in Brussels, she get a bit angry. They borrowed money for my last tickets and I still didn't get my reimbursement, so they can't give them back :( And now new ticket arrived :( And she decided not to borrow next money from other people, so I don't know how I'll solve this situation. And I must go! I have already problems with my final seminar of TATEM in Morocco - crazy costs of tickets :( Now this, and this is just a beginning of my travelling during the autumn. Ufff... It's so stupid, that people must lost their energy, time and even health (yes, too much stress is not good at all for our health!) for getting money all the time :/
Ok, stop thinking about it for now...

Yes, Adeline - I'm from Poland and I still live here :) But I'm starting to be more and more surprised how I may live here with so stupid political situation ;) But who knows, maybe in the future I'll live for some years in different countries, eg. France :)

Correction: this Anonymus in my comments it is (in 95% of time) my friend Rene. I don't understand why he's avoiding writing his name there :p

Fruition

From some time I love songs of Polish singer - Michał Bajor, he has really interesting and poetic lyrics. I felt that I would like to publish some of them here, but I coulnd't find any English translation of it. So, I decided to translate it by myself ;) Few minutes after the start I was angry, that I decided so ;) But I decided to finish it :p So, this is very amateur translation, be gentle with me :p

"Fruition

You don't even know how much I would give
For one night, for one day
Of being loved by you
So close you even through a dream

Touch of your hands, taste of your lips and whisper
Don't rush ourselves, let's wait
It's so difficult for me to understand your each gesture
Which was unknown for my heart until now

Dream, my dream
Live the whole eternity in me
Last here to spin this wonderful fairytale
Dream, my dream
Give me know a new depths
Reach for coronas of all stars

Again whisper, touch, your smell
Your breath tore by happieness
The biggest glamor, inmost secret of souls and bodies
Insted for days when you weren't here

Already don't know which body is whose
The soul forfeit its owner
There is no transe, because it is the top
There is already no way to rise above

Dream, my dream
Live the whole eternity in me
Last here to spin this wonderful fairytale
Dream, my dream
Give me know new depths
Reach for coronas of all stars

You don't even know how much I would give..."

Thanks to M. and new mail of Arthur ;)

Update

I need some change, so at least changing coulour of the font ;)

I know (somewhere deep in my heart or brain) that probably you're right with your comments. But with my strange mood since some time I don't believe you :p But I still believe that it'll change somwhere in the future. Besides, my friend from Polish blog believes strongly that dreams come true and she is trying to convince me ;) If some of my night dreams could come true it would be so incredible :)

When I was last time in Toruń (yes, with you Biba :))) there was a beginning of the Festival called "Summer of movies". During this opening we 'discovered' a great French band called Taraf Dékalé. I liked them a lot even after those few songs, which we've heard. So, since few days I have a pleasure to listen one of their albums "Vieille machine". It's a cool music, I recommend it :)

Today I have a nice guests. My friend from highschool visited me. Together with her kids :) My god-daughter is 3 years old, she loves laughing and don't want to talk much :) Her older brother (6 years old) is a clever and nice thinker-talker :) They are very nice :)

Amazing is a fact that girl, with whom I was sitting in one desk has already 2 kids, third in November and the oldest will start the reception class in September! In comparision with that my life still is definitely hm... "childlish?" and empty. Our world is strange...

Yesterday I received an invitation for a reunion of graduates of my department. Am I so old?? But seriously, there are 4 reasons for this reunion: 10 years of department, 15 years of the European Studies (speciality), 80 years of my uni, 50 years of work of my promoter. It looks very interesting. But on 20th of October I'll be in Izmir, having an evaluation meeting of our training course. A bit pity, next opportunity will be probably in 10 years - when there will be 90 years of my uni.

It looks that we'll not meet during this long weekend with Eva and guys, but in the next one. Long weekend because of bank holiday on 15th, so whole Poland is relaxing ;) So, guys promissed to visit Eva in next Saturday, so after one month we will (maybe) see each other. Maybe there will be also Johannes, Biba :) He still has his volunteering time in Toruń. Should I convey a piece of news for him from you? Or maybe take his e-mail address?

It would be great to meet 'my small group' again :) I miss them a lot...

Crisis?

I'm not sure if I should continue this blog. I'm up to date in my Polish one and it's not so good idea to write similar things on both. I thought that it'll be a place for my friends - to be updated with my life. But it seems it don't work so well. So, maybe I should leave it. I must think about it.

I have a strange period in my life. Very unstable emotionally and because of that rest is also not so good. I can't concentrate on my work, I'm lazy and must 'push' myself to work, I'm not creative at all and not efficient :/ And it doesn't seems that it'll change soon - my personal life seems not change in the nearest future. And if yes - probably it'll be not for good, at least if I may judge the situation. Eh...

I should prepare myself for the nearest projects, but as I wrote already - it doesn't work good. But I MUST. I want to be professional during them. Cross your fingers for that (if anyone will read it ;))

It seems that my autumn will be travelling time. Starting in September - (probably) Rotterdam, Brussels, Cardiff. Then will come October with still Cardiff at the beginning then Izmir, probably Hungary (sorry Biba, I can't remember this name of the town :/). Then on the turn of October and November will be Bonn (probably) and after it - Essaouira in Morocco. And I think it'll be all for this year, but never know... But all those travels are under the question mark, because of money - I alway must buy ticket first and then will be reimubrsed. And it's very expensive if you will count all of them! And if it comes to participation - most of the they are paying during projects, so it's quite ok. But e.g. with Cardiff I don't know how it will looks. Preparatory meeting was in the first part of June and I'm still waiting for my money :( And the most expensive will be Turkey and Morocco. I hope that I'll solve this problem somehow, but I'm not sure :(

Ehhh...